Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are but I... .. . . I'm with you ..
Ok, the main thing i wanna tell is simply IT'S a damn cold night.
What a wonderful song by Avril Lavigne. Ok, once again, it's not the main point. My thermometer tells me my place is so cold that it's under an unusual pressure: 27C. Not very pressurable though, I thought. Not as if it is 20C? If it's at 10C, the mercury content will be highly pressured. At 27C, it is only pleasurable to me. I'm sitting down on my little comfy armchair, enjoying occasional sips of freshly brewed lavender tea, while trying to type out THIS four-lettered word. Not anything dirty, mind you, and hey, it's THIS. Nevermind, and hope you understand. The weather is so cooling, but not cold, that thick jacket has to be worn over. Perhaps it's because given the proximity of my apartment to the thick old rainforest. Not really rain forest though, you might laugh out my ass cos' you don't call those mothers in Singapore a forest, am i wrong? Not wanting to remind you about it, but it's just so disturbing to witness myself described my armchair as something little. It's little, yup, only from the perspective of my gigantically sized body. I'm still living though, and that'll equate to having more kilos in addition to the current issue. From here, it can easily tell what i'm living for and perhaps another why. I eat to live, or I live to eat? Recently, the past syndrome has invaded me once again. Perhaps its eating disorder? Not a known issue concurrently, even in the past. It's been a disturbance so much so that food never leaves my thoughts in any occasion at any time. Sometimes the logical state of mind reluctantly has given way to its emotional counterpart; it went something like this: I know I shouldn't and mustn't BUT i really FEEL like eating and that piece of cake because it looks so appealing BUT i know that will be harmful to me if i were to eat it... the chatter box goes on, and on. Guess wad? Still, it's down my gullet.
After given the good weather a thought, and of course the 'syndrome' a due consideration, i went for a jog, after so long a time since i last did it. At 9.30pm, i went off determined even after given an advise from my mum that the sky's getting darker. Hello, the sky's the same throughout the night, isn't it?? Unless when considered with variations such as a bad weather or so. It's such a good weather, and definitely a 'here i come' mood must be there to kick off a start, at least. So, jog jog jog. Breezy atmosphere. Chilly winds cuts into my face and busted through me. The perspirant wasn't warm for long; they've got chilled once they're out from home, as chilled as I was. Being chilly, both physically and emotionally, does greatly help. The weather calmed my excited soul. My mind became truely peaceful from the uninvited guest - stress. It's my guest, so it's not mine =).
And i've made up my mind - it's time for logic to happen. Because what my emotion tells me is to savour the feeling of biting and tasting of wonderful food, food and food. But on the other hand, my logic says that I need a diet change. That's why, what I've decided is to stay on the logical side. May my days ahead be lighter, and more imptly, healthier~
By the way, please congratulate me - i've just managed to stay off the succulent piece of pinapple cookie that has been gleaming like myself. what a glam~
Was playing around blogthing dot com and concluded my visit with these thingies:
| You Should Drive a Bentley Azure |
 You're all flash, and you love to show off to anyone who will watch. And you're such a high roller, this is just one car of many for you... |
And why is it so true... To you, are the facts given to me true?
| Your Personality is Very Rare (INTJ) |
 Your personality type is logical, uncompromising, independent, and nonconformist. Only about 3% of all people have your personality, including 2% of all women and 4% of all men. You are Introverted, Intuitive, Thinking, and Judging. |
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