It was truely a misfortune to have died in just split seconds.

They might not know. Or won't even know. They were peacefully enjoying their last nap. A sleep that's throughout. The ones who know are the next of kins, friends, and the alive. And the suffering of theirs, having the loved ones parting their lives is a torture. Cries of pain could be heard. Even from strangers elsewhere. All these were because, we all felt the pain; we're human beings after all. Even dogs cry.

It is always after an accident or mishap before preventive measures are done up. I feel sad. Because it's always too late. More so are their friends and families, especially their mothers; having experienced giving birth, literally have brought them to this world.

It's Rueben Kee's blog: http://www.compositious.blogspot.com/. His last entry showed he'd bad feelings and instincts about the trip. Even men have the sixth sense? It showed to be true. Tag to bid his farewell.

It's an end to this great composer. 'Back Home'. A music created by himself. Listen, and you'll shatter. Ironically, he'll never be back home.

It's a lesson learnt. A really, really expensive one.

May the next journey of theirs continue to be as happening as what's past.

Bless all, to my concern.

Rest in peace...

Logics And Still Logical

It's a damn cold night...
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are but I... .. . . I'm with you ..

Ok, the main thing i wanna tell is simply IT'S a damn cold night.

What a wonderful song by Avril Lavigne. Ok, once again, it's not the main point. My thermometer tells me my place is so cold that it's under an unusual pressure: 27C. Not very pressurable though, I thought. Not as if it is 20C? If it's at 10C, the mercury content will be highly pressured. At 27C, it is only pleasurable to me. I'm sitting down on my little comfy armchair, enjoying occasional sips of freshly brewed lavender tea, while trying to type out THIS four-lettered word. Not anything dirty, mind you, and hey, it's THIS. Nevermind, and hope you understand. The weather is so cooling, but not cold, that thick jacket has to be worn over. Perhaps it's because given the proximity of my apartment to the thick old rainforest. Not really rain forest though, you might laugh out my ass cos' you don't call those mothers in Singapore a forest, am i wrong? Not wanting to remind you about it, but it's just so disturbing to witness myself described my armchair as something little. It's little, yup, only from the perspective of my gigantically sized body. I'm still living though, and that'll equate to having more kilos in addition to the current issue. From here, it can easily tell what i'm living for and perhaps another why. I eat to live, or I live to eat? Recently, the past syndrome has invaded me once again. Perhaps its eating disorder? Not a known issue concurrently, even in the past. It's been a disturbance so much so that food never leaves my thoughts in any occasion at any time. Sometimes the logical state of mind reluctantly has given way to its emotional counterpart; it went something like this: I know I shouldn't and mustn't BUT i really FEEL like eating and that piece of cake because it looks so appealing BUT i know that will be harmful to me if i were to eat it... the chatter box goes on, and on. Guess wad? Still, it's down my gullet.

After given the good weather a thought, and of course the 'syndrome' a due consideration, i went for a jog, after so long a time since i last did it. At 9.30pm, i went off determined even after given an advise from my mum that the sky's getting darker. Hello, the sky's the same throughout the night, isn't it?? Unless when considered with variations such as a bad weather or so. It's such a good weather, and definitely a 'here i come' mood must be there to kick off a start, at least. So, jog jog jog. Breezy atmosphere. Chilly winds cuts into my face and busted through me. The perspirant wasn't warm for long; they've got chilled once they're out from home, as chilled as I was. Being chilly, both physically and emotionally, does greatly help. The weather calmed my excited soul. My mind became truely peaceful from the uninvited guest - stress. It's my guest, so it's not mine =).

And i've made up my mind - it's time for logic to happen. Because what my emotion tells me is to savour the feeling of biting and tasting of wonderful food, food and food. But on the other hand, my logic says that I need a diet change. That's why, what I've decided is to stay on the logical side. May my days ahead be lighter, and more imptly, healthier~

By the way, please congratulate me - i've just managed to stay off the succulent piece of pinapple cookie that has been gleaming like myself. what a glam~

Was playing around blogthing dot com and concluded my visit with these thingies:

You Should Drive a Bentley Azure

You're all flash, and you love to show off to anyone who will watch. And you're such a high roller, this is just one car of many for you...

What 2007 Car Should You Drive?

And why is it so true... To you, are the facts given to me true?

Your Personality is Very Rare (INTJ)

Your personality type is logical, uncompromising, independent, and nonconformist. Only about 3% of all people have your personality, including 2% of all women and 4% of all men. You are Introverted, Intuitive, Thinking, and Judging.

How Rare Is Your Personality?

ASPARTAME - THE SILENT KILLER

ASPARTAME - THE SILENT KILLER

For those who take Ricola & Fisherman , please note that they both contain Aspartame - the silent killer!

FOR THOSE WHO LIKE TO EAT FISHERMAN SWEETS BE CAREFUL: Sugar free products contain ASPARTAME .. So don't consume Sugar free product esp 'fisherman sweets'

ASPARTAME - THE SILENT KILLER (by Ron Harder)

To those who prefer to consume artificial flavouring:

There is an epidemic across North America today of Multiple Sclerosis and Lupus. Most people do not understand why this epidemic is happening, and they do not know why these diseases are so rampant. I would like to share with you the main reason we are having this very serious problem. Many people today use artificial sweeteners in their tea or coffee.

They do this because the ads they see on TV tell them that sugar is bad for their health. This is absolutely true. Sugar is toxic to us , but what most people use as a replacement for sugar is much more deadly. I am talking about ASPARTAME. It is the cause of the epidemic that was mentioned above. ASPARTAME is an extremely toxic chemical that is produced by a chemical company called Monsanto.

ASPARTAME is being marketed around the world as a sugar substitute and is found in all diet soft drinks, such as Diet Coke and Diet Pepsi. It is also found in artificial sweeteners such as NutraSweet, Equal, and Spoonful; and it is used in many other products as a sugar replacement.

ASPARTAME is marketed as a diet product, but it is not a diet product at all. In fact, it will cause you to GAIN weight because it makes you crave carbohydrates. Causing you to gain weight is only a very small part of what ASPARTAME does. It is a toxic chemical that changes the brain's chemistry. It can and does cause severe seizures.

This chemical changes the dopamine level in the brain, and it is particularly deadly for anyone suffering from Parkinson's disease.

ASPARTAME is extremely poisonous, and here is why one of the toxic ingredients of it is wood alcohol. When the temperature of ASPARTAME exceeds 86 degrees F, the wood alcohol in it is converted to Formaldehyde, and then to formic acid, which in turn causes folic acidosis.

FORMALDEHYDE is grouped in the same class of poisons as Cyanide and Arsenic which are very deadly toxins. The only difference is, Formaldehyde kills quietly, and it takes a little longer. And, in the process of killing people, it causes all kinds of neurological problems. There are 92 documented symptoms of Aspartame Poisoning leading to coma and death.

The majority of these symptoms are neurological, because the ASPARTAME attacks and destroys the nervous system. One of these symptoms is Lupus, which has become almost as rampant as Multiple Sclerosis, especially with Diet Coke and Diet Pepsi drinkers.

Now, my advise to you and friends is to consume less of sugary food and beverages! Especially those sweetened by artificial means.

!Hoh~

Finally a time to rest my soul.

Friday was a killer - EFMA ica was that much. Mentally straining. What more, i was so tired to have forgotten there's actually a camp going on. So paiseh yea, having forgotten the most important event of the year. But being this way is also a lifestyle yea? gotta enjoy it =) ooo

Gone to LTA's campus that afternoon at hamshire road to collect my winnings! Not cash but a limited adition ez-link card! pictures printed on it is 'the great transport challenge 2020!' after redeemed it, i board a bus two stops down the avenue and alighted opposite simlimsquare. At tekka mall, i had my fill of hokkien mee (one of the best hokkien mee in singapore) and then gone into shengsiong supermarket for a stroll to past time, carrying a big box of donuts bought from wk.

Best Hokkien MEE!

My new ez-link card

Classic: an antique real car found at LTA's campus. (Above) And it's by FORD! (Below)

ALRIGHT, i was disgusted with simpathy not in a good way by the way they handle live food animals. Live frogs are displayed in a large steel container with so many of them together. one of it, probably have felt the danger of being beheaded, tried with its two arms to escape off the container (you can imagine a hamster doing incline pull up). The killed-frog corpes were displayed just so near to their live-counterparts! (Like you and some human meats being left together). Unfortunately the container's been sealed with a large piece of net. When the head got stucked in the tightly enclosed net after several atempts, it had given up. It's eyelids were shut when in contact with the net, imagine how irritated it was. By this time, four days already, I know, it'd have been beheaded and skinned alive or maybe already down right into someone's stomach. I've got videos to support yea. Just wait, i'll add subtitles and post it to youtube and probably stomp to share them around. SAY NO TO FROGS, FELLOW FRIENDS.

After saying so much, I have, HOWEVER, not at all an intention to beg for a start to switch to vegeterian, not even to say partial-vegeterian. All these are part of nature, undoubtly ya? But I beg to urge everybody to at the very least appreciate what's on your plate. Be it plant sources or from animal, each of them somehow or somewhat come at a cost definitely. The cost to you may be the money you exchange it for. That's PEANUT. Compare it with the years of cultivating the crops and rearing of quality animals at the farmers' ends; sacrificing the years and days alive, as if dead, in cramped cages and bars as though being put in prison with no say at all when they've actually innocently done NOTHING wrong, and playing of the game of chance to see who's day would it be to be slaughtered before the next sunrise; the painful moment when they're shot, culled, slaughtered, slashed, skinned, beheaded, or heated alive till death brings their warmth apart from their beloved family of cubs awaiting for be breasts-fed; the contributions to the el nino state the world is now facing, given the large amount of plants needed to feed the animals which require land spaces let out by deforestation; and of course the methane gases released from the livestocks systems. In the next centuries to come your grandchildren might be there struggling for oxygen because there's only one tree on earth left. Or even worse there's no basic criteria for living, and there'll not be any new generations. What causes it? Guess no more but partly the pieces of meat you ate yesterday. Though we can't really see or control what's going to happen after 200 years, what we can do now is to be both morally and socially responsible for what we're doing because for every little course of actions we perform does greatly affect the shape of the future.

Care to even appreciate your food and not to waste?

AIYO BACK TO POINT:

Actually it's not really the frogs that matter. It's the way they manage their storefront.

Mutton section: the butcher culling the already-dead sheep rib-cage. With the pungent smell stucked in the aircon.

Seafood section: live fishes swiming their way only to end up with heads chopped off while alive, or the stomach turned over in the cloudy water while they're alive. cat fishes struggling in water half the height of their body. Big fishes put to suffocate on an old cardboard probably because their dying while in water. low frequency sound could be heard ya, and i'm certain it was from them.

Pork and beef section: similar to mutton section, but only without the mutton smell.

There's still more, I'll eleborate more in the next posts. Shengsiong is only ONE STEP away from the NEXT: culling chickens, slaughtering cows and pigs in-store. only with moaning in great pain would be heard. Perhaps further next: rearing them in aircon room, next to the cashier.

Tekka Mall is a true ghost town. Even though sitting on a prime location, the mall's layout made it a total failure. None of the shops at B1 is open, despite the crowd puller (supermart) is just direcctly below. Some shops are open on level two and ground level, but from level 3 onwards through 8, there's none. HOPELESS.

Those who designed it ought to be hanged; those who approved it ought to be shot.

Relax, calm a 'lil, OK, back to point. There's not much thingy happened over the weekend either. =x

Here's what has happened during the weekend:

Sat morning: A bit of tennis, then drizzled.
Sat afternoon till late night: nap
Sat late night to sun midnight: online
Sun midnight till late morning: sleep
Sun noon: lunch
sun afternoon: nap
sun afternoon - night: visit grandma
sun 11pm: sleep.

Exciting huh? what an interesting weekend. only to me, at least.

Just got this WOWtv subscription from Qmax. Wow, and wow! there's really a lot of VOD (video-on-demand). Lots of movies and variety shows. Droolzz.. and next week, mioTV is coming to my house also. let's cheer hooray! my house's gonna be turned into a mini theatre soon.

Today, how's the presentation on pbwiki? I would say, well done. Good luck peeps. N finally got the hang of Finance alr. gonna cheong till I meet the line. what line? neh, the line lor. the self-set line. not mrt line but my target line.

shh~ tell you: i was at stomp website where i saw the two buses which collided with each other! bus 56 and the other 58. 5658. wu luck wu huat sia~ as suggested by one member. huat ar!

Here's a photo i'd like to share: A super cute dog!

It's been a great day today.

Finance ICA wasn't really difficult and yet I couldn't really finish it. Perhaps I'll only pass the overall marks =X

Yes, indeed a great day; I was as if pronounced a brain-dead since morning. I slept last night in heat and irritation due to the humidity and warm weather, so I used the aircon instead. At dawn, I was as if frozen, just as a piece of meat you would see in your freezer, because the temperature was set just too low. Then in the morning I woke up in heat once again which sunk myself totally into frustrations. The sweater which I wore for warmth had been thrown onto the floor, leaving only my skin intact. Right, this is how I started my day today.

Since the day when I was declared sick, I stopped taking the supplements. As a result, and as visibly, I've gone into Sleepyhead State Syndrome (SSS) once again. The organisation ability has gone down to drain and have not been getting up for weeks already, even on today, and more days to come.

Alright, bought myself a story book today. What's the title? i can't tell without looking at the book because remember, today i'm in this stupid triple asses SSS.

AHCB Pot Luck X'mas Party's meeting was, I would say, VERY SELF DRIVEN. I'm simply surprised even till this very instance and the satisfaction is there hanging upright. Hope that's already a good start, and wish there'll be a good end result too. I would say almost half of the plannings are done on this very first meeting. Very FOCUSED. Damn it.

Thanks to Dan, dA, wk, FQ, Dap, Yc, and Yong. Bow, (wow).

And for that matter, and perhaps, I see time for a succession to take place. I've got somebody in mind to succeed over, not to the current, but new ones. The current ones will be superceeded by the new batches and then be promoted to the new Advisory Panel (AP) as Senior Members. Sounds exciting huh? It sounds that way to me too. And all postings for these people (ie Presidents, Treasurers, Etc) will be removed leaving only SM or advisers. A Chairman for the Advisory Panel will also be elected.

So is it really a great day ? Weigh wigh and weigh...

EFMA ICA is coming in just less than 10 hours. And i've not been revising it for weeks. LOL Better get started before I get startled.

Tmr after school, I'll head down to LTA's office to collect my winning! I've won a commemorative EZ-Link Card with a value of $20 within. After that i'll meet up with the mother of my new student for a discussion.

EEr, better get those pills down my throat before these events. =X

To start off, let me lament how tired am I.

Just yesterday, I had classes from 9 till 2pm. And from then on, I continued finishing up what's not yet completed in my marketing management project.

It was tough. The tough part was that actually the questions weren't tough, but having to have continued squeezing out my brain juice to get an effective work done despite days of sleepless nights is horrible. It was nonetheless completed nicely anyway.

While on my way to submit the work, I have thoughts like this: oh no... my submission is three days of lateness and that would mean 9marks gone to the grave. Then I thought firmly that I wanted to negotiate with ms tan and secure back the 9 marks! And it was like, done. After a phone call to several heads of department, i was granted this previlige.

At 5.30pm, I gone to Ateam room and had myself interviewed by the vice-president and team. I would day, hmm... gone case. I hadn't had enough brain juice to get myself organise what I wanted to say. They asked me how would I handle a case of a member refusing to perform her duty for an important event just because her blazor size is too big.

Interviewers: ~~~
Me: I'll let her know nicely that it is an important event and she ought to perform it.
Interviewers: But, what if she die die refuses?
Me: I'll try to arrange for a blazor of her desired size from the SA office. If not, i'll try persuade others to exchange with her. (I felt like telling them I DON'T F***ING CARE, she die die must do it)
Interviewers: But there's no blazor left. And all her friends are already happy with their blazor size. How would you do it?
Me: Tell her not to do the event, and debar her from doing any future events with immediate effect.

Alright, I don't think i'll be able to secure a place in the committee already. With this kind of answer I doubt i'll be able to make it.

Anyway, I turned in at 9pm right after I've taken a shower. Flip left and right, and woooooo i've gone into dreamlands. Till four hours after dawn.

Gone to school early in the morning again for project meetings. Then attended classes. Then A team meeting agaiN! It's been routined huh?

Went to popular, saw P2's assesment book details. Tmr it's my first tuition lesson (provide, not receive). He's a P1 boy boy going to P2 next year.

Back from Changi.
Here are the photos =)

Still sick though. Especially so after a meal of curries and pratas.

Headache.
Tired.
Stomachache.

And timeache; I'm out of time.
3 Topics of Law ICA tmr, and 10-page marketing report not done, yet.
How? Better go do now lor~~

A physical outing made me mentally relax. Now even more physically tired, more than anything else; greater than yours, greatest within.

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Super Sunday and Tea Tree!

It's a Super Sunday! Beautiful indeed, I woke up only to have found some pizzas on the table. Elated and surprise, we had mum's hard work till totally full.

To add on to this super sunday, dad plans to go Changi airport T3. Probably a whole day outing, given the size of the building. And there'll be an advantage just today - whenever hungry, simply go onboard a train and head one station downwards to Expo, where there's lots and lots of food on exhibition. Oh my T3, and of course food, here I come!

It will be another post of good pictures. Just wait yea? I'll be back with photos. Meanwhile if you can't wait or resist but to drool over the much anticipated monumental landmard, visit the gallery to satisfy your tastebuts first!

Here are last Friday's Nihon Mura photos!

Japanese Villiage

Japanese Mache?!

Wow!
Fried Tofu

Dunno what shell =X
Miso~

Oh my cravings for sushis are here!
Honey, here I come!
Anyone knows this sushi chain called nihon mura?
GO and try it and for sure you'll love me.
2nd level, IRAS building, Opposite Novena MRT.

Good food are best known for their quality,
then secondly: it is healthy?
I know I can't mingle your thoughts but seriously,
Trust me. It's good, it's very healthy, and it's very very cheap!

No more sick leave today, yet I didn't go to school. AND what's more I'm heading down for honey later. If I kena caught somewhere there by someone there, doom. Anyway, i'm still suffering from nausiness and it's really terrible. I don't know how many times must I emphasize on the word 'terrible', it's just so bad. Whether is it terrigible, horrigible or vegetable they're just the same. Stopped taking those killers already, and hope i'll feel better tmr.

Supposedly the marketing proj must be handed up by 5pm today. I think i'll have to self extend the dateline myself. See what's not yet done? You'll be frightened. MUAHAHAHHAhAhA. It's not an excuse created but it's jus so true that I'm afraid ppl might think it's an excuse. 'i was so drowsy and nausy that made me feel really bad and thus, the lateness in submission.'

i'm being honest and I declare that I've done quite some bit this afternoon. When totally feeling bored, I switched task and edited my blog instead. Noticed some changes? There's video, there's more and more photos added and more!

Shan't be too talkative today. I'll get my work done before coming here again tmr.

Another boring yet tiring day. Gone to school just for projs. Ok, I was dragging along this giddy head and strengthless body and it was really terrible. But muahaha? I got another day of MC from Dr Tan, and when seen him he gave me another kind of med: Cough syrup (yecks!). Skipped lessons once again. =X Smiles, and smile, anyway.

Gone to Dr Tan's clinic after finishing the proj. I was as though drunk after taken much of the medications. TERRIBLE~

Ok, just got myself a new game to entertain all the side effects of drugs. And it is..... Bus Driver! Sounds a bit ...duh? Quite lah. It's a game that makes you a virtual bus driver. Alright, it was like so so only...Duh... Except for the thrill i caught when the bus crashed into the bus stop loaded with crowds.

Had dinner, and then again i'm indulged in my happy lappy. No more Bus Driver, the one-hour trial has ended. Sad huh? But there are two choices: 29.99 or no way. So I chose the rational one.

Just received wk's reply. He's going malaysia again. LOL.. After his trip will be mine, but in two months' time! Cheers...

I'm super bored LAH.....~

Today is another boring day at home. projects projects projects. One due tmr, and another the day after. And their weightages are like 35% and 20%? Muahahaha. Getting to an end of these tasks is my current concern, and having already taken the flu medicine which now caused my serious drowsiness is yet another hit on the head. Ten minutes to three, I'll have 3 more hours before the next dosage of medication. By then, that'll be of course another hit, and I reckon it will be harder this time.

Definitely going to school is part of my schedule for tmr; there's an interview with my CCA's seniors because guys, i'm being elected to co-govern the club next year! I've been chosen into the executive committee, but to which posting will i be posted to i'm not yet aware. Hope this will be another milestone in life, and more importantly it will complement my studies, heh.

SWOT analysis; business unit strategic planning . . blah bla blah. Still clueless though. Ok time to get back to work!

Sick for a day already. Flu. Fever. Sore throat. Zzz Howsoever cause by the few numbers of cockles and mussels. That's sway lah~ MC for today, tmr and maybe thursday. Gonna miss the fun outing to Sentosa with fellow CHEERS mates. Ahhhh!!!

Just today, I missed finance, marketing and logistics tutorials and lectures; and counting. Tmr there'll be EFMA and law tutorials. yet another screams~~~~

Alright, let's flashback to the last weekend. Had chalet with the band gang at DE, and it was fun! I would describe it as fun on average, and it wouldn't be had I not use the word 'average'.

Right after school ended, met up with wk and left home to pack my barang barangs. Weather was a little bad then, and leaving house a little later might help I thought. However it turned out to be good, and I blamed myself for bringing the extra umbrella.

The entire journey involved using my lappy. Arms and eyes got strained, and all the way having to stuck my vision onto the screen was terrible. AND that's all because I hadn't remember to submit OIPP application form on time. Ok, nevermind. Not long after checking in, I went out headed back for school. guess how long i've waited for 354? 40mins!!!! And the weather was really good, or somehow bad, as strong sun ray shone onto me directly, making me look a little tan. 40 minutes of exposure is good enough. at least to cause my current sickness, on top of the consumption of cockles.

After 354, I chased for a bus that 'looked' like 39, (all sbs buses look alike aren't they?) and I chased it like HELL, yes hell, and it turned out to be bus 3 when I reach there. Forget it, I looked like a kid after given the bus a chase. All these were for the extra 15mins I could save to get to school. When totally convinced, I decided to take 88 instead, and then gone to the berth. AGAIN, the bus left me. Really ZZZZZ.

Anyway, taxi is much faster. who doesn't know? 14 bucks brought me to school in 20mins.

BBQ!

On the way back, I took 88, and went to fairprice whitesands to get their red wine and cup noodles. When found no suitable wine, on top of forgetting their tom yam cup noodles after facinated by the LIVE CRABS, I took that guy back to chalet and had a fun time buaing it with butter. Gone were those days playing on the mud, catching fishes along the river. The last moment was set up by a blaze of fire. Stress, oily, heat, stuggle, and helplessness, ouchhhh!! With legs broken, and swoosh! it became my dinner.

EEERRRRRRR~~~~ And then... Yummy!!!

The second day was equally good; subway!, frisbee game, bbq, night cycle, etc. It was however a TOTAL DISAPPOINTMENT because I couldn't get to see my long awaited experience on changi coast road, a.k.a endless road. N we got back, had a good bath but not all ended the day as early as I did. Things turned bad, as bad as really bad. da didn have sleep at all. Yr ps etc. Thanks to that amazing epitome of goodness.

Third day: pack up and left. NOD NOD, yes, just packed and went off. On the journey back, again, laptop.

Final deliverables: Done National Edu Proj, Essay for OIPP application package.

And NOW, getting to stand up straight is already a problem. So, no school for tmr, yea.

While on the way back on bus 88 to DE, I saw rainbow!

Lights of various colours come as one and together,
they form something really beautiful.

Teacher, if I were to be in that building, will I have seven colours on my head?

Frisbee!